one more hours... and it's 2 days and nights since i last chatted with him...

I had grabbed my phone and started to type in some text but cleared it, for quite a few times...

Dono what to do...

Today is very different.

I smiled. I laughed. I talked. I played.

This is so not me.

Deep in me... it's not so good actually.

Tears came to my eyes for a few times when i kept quiet today.

Every single thing i do, reminds me of him.

Even when i talk...

I remembered the way he asked me "are u awake" when i talked stupidly..

I remembered the way he stopped me from knocking him...

I remembered the way he pulled my hair to my ears...

They way he said "day dreaming huh?"....

And a lot. A lot.

I checked on my phone from time to time.
And i prayed for his name to come in sight.

But it's disappointment everytime.

I didnt even switch off my phone last night.

Hoping to see his name this morning.

In the end...

I just see my wallpaper...

I rushed to get my phone when i got back home...

Hoping for what i wan...

But, empty... again.

Now, I'm starting to be afraid to look at my phone.

I'm afraid to be disappointed...

That feeling sucks!!

I feel like just switch off my phone forever.

.. But i won't be able to take my mind off him... >.<

The thing i really wish now is to see him.

I didn't see him today..

I wonder if he's in sch today...

His face is slowly fading from my brain...

Friday night.

I can still clearly remember his smiling face...

But not now...

I'm starting to forget..

pls don..

i don wan to forget... TT

I love to be in the dark..

tears roll down easier and nobody sees it...

[i guess the 3 of u know who's this...]